๐ โDear body, I am sorry.
โ โ
Iโm sorry I bullied you.
Iโm sorry for being selfish.
Iโm sorry for cutting your wrists.
Iโm sorry for all that I put you through.
Iโm sorry for all the mean things I said about you.
Iโm sorry I didnโt care for you the way you deserved.
Iโm sorry for not ever listening to you.
Iโm sorry I took you for granted.
Iโm sorry I didnโt respect you.
Iโm sorry for starving you.
โ โ
And most importantlyโฆIโm sorry for blaming you.
It has taken me yearsโฆ
But Iโve FINALLY realized that youโre my life partner and companion.
โ โ
When you needed me most was when I put my walls up and belittled you.
And Iโll NEVER forget the trauma I put you through.
But I swear Iโve learned my lesson, and I promise that Iโm committed to honoring you.
โ โ
Toโฆ
โ โ
โฅ๏ธ Loving you
โฅ๏ธ Caring for you
โฅ๏ธ Supporting you
โฅ๏ธ Listening to you
โฅ๏ธ Respecting youโจโฅ๏ธ Nourishing you
โ โ
Thank you for never giving up on me.
Thank you for trusting me to take care of you.
Thank you for everything youโve done for me.
โ โ
I love you with every fiber...
Why you need to ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐น๐ฎ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ โ๏ธ the Masculine and Feminine Energy in business.
P.S. Iโm referring to UNIVERSAL energiesโฆ not gender! ๐
All genders have inside of them both the ๐ณ๐ฒ๐บ๐ถ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ (yin) and ๐บ๐ฎ๐๐ฐ๐๐น๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ (yang) energy.
Did you know this? ๐ฒ
For majority of my business, I was operating primarily in the masculine energy...
Constantly focusing on DOING and strategizing etc...
Until I hit burnout.
I grew up in a predominantly masculine energy household ๐ :
โช๏ธlogicalโฃ
โช๏ธcontrolโฃโฃ
โช๏ธdominanceโฃโฃ
As a result, there was MINIMAL feminine energy in my home growing up.
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๐ผโโ๏ธ No softness, no emotions, no allowing, and no nurturing.โฃ
๐๐ผ As a result, I felt insecure about EVERYTHING in my life due to this imbalance of the masculine & feminine energy in my home life.
Which ultimately sabotaged me in many areas of my life โ ESPECIALLY my business and relationships.โฃ
I ended up suppressing my emotions SO much that my mental health was at itโs absolute worst, resulting in depression and anxiety.
Fast forward... everything in ...
Wanna know what fucks with you in life and business?
Unhealed childhood wounds. ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ
Like many people, *especially* my fellow entrepreneurs, coaches, and leadersโฆ
It took a while for me to come to the conclusion that there was so much unresolved wounds/trauma from my childhood ๐โฆ
Which ended up manifesting into limiting beliefs, self-sabotaging behaviours, and toxic patterns that affected *EVERY* area of my life, biz, and relationships. ๐
Do you resonate with this?
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And hereโs the truth...
It took a LONG ass time for me to even admit that I had childhood trauma because my childhood โwasnโt as bad as othersโ.
But this denial and refusal to face my shadows and to bring up things that havenโt been healedโฆ
โ๏ธ Caused me to not only feel stuck and stagnant, and unable to move forward in my life + businessโฆ
โ๏ธ But I was basically forced to take 6 months off and rely on my savings so that I could finally heal my shit โ because I had officially hit ROCK fucking bottom (end of 2020 was rough ๐ถ).
So w...
CHECK YO BATTERIES!๐
How are you feeling today? ๐๐ฝ
1๏ธโฃ Feelinโ GREEEEATT! ๐ฅณ
Keep doing what youโre doing my love! And keep practicing your self-care!!
2๏ธโฃ Feelinโ good!! โบ๏ธ
This is amazing! How can you maintain where youโre currently at?
3๏ธโฃ Feelinโ okay ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ
How can you make your day a teeeeennsssy bit better?
4๏ธโฃ Merp ๐
Be kind to yourself today!!! How can you love on yourself a little more today?
5๏ธโฃ Iโm strugglinโ ๐
What are you struggling with most right now? And just focus on that area a little more today! ๐ฅฐ And be patient and kind with yourself!
6๏ธโฃ Iโm depleted/empty ๐ฐ
Whatโs draining you my love? Do you have boundaries? Can you stand firm in them?
Do just 1 thing today that can fill your cup up โฅ๏ธ๐๐ฝ and give yourself grace!
Remember โ SELF CARE ISNT SELFISH! So love on yourself extra hard today!
January 8th: The day I *finally* shared about my 8+ year battle
substance abuse ONLINEโฆ and it was single-handedly one of the most nerve-wracking days of my life. ๐ฅด
But also THE most liberating day of my life. ๐๐ฝ
I finally felt like I could be *fully myself* without hiding such a huge part of my story.
Fast forward...
I can proudly say Iโve finally overcome substance abuse after 8+ years.
I am officially 160 days sober from Cannabisโฆ
After what was supposed to only be a 30-day hiatus to heal my relationship with it. ๐๐ฝ
And Iโve been able to help HUUUNNNDREEDS of others just like me do the same through sharing my story on TikTok (this has been a blessing ๐ฅบ).
And most recently...
I got asked to speak at a Youth Empowerment Summit workshop, sharing my story with substance abuse to 12-17 year olds. ๐คฏ
My LITERAL dream is coming true ๐ฅบ
... Getting paid to speak on things Iโm passionate about and impact the younger generation. (How is this real life?)
And N O N E of this wouldโve happened had I not faced ...
Iโd love to hear your thoughts at the end...
So Iโm the queen of hoarding all my old school work, notes, photos, etc...
And I like to look over them every few years and go back down memory lane. ๐
(anybody else????)
Anywho โ I came across my old school work, tests, class notes, etc from high school, and many thoughts raced through my mind...
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1๏ธโฃ I hated and sucked at math, so I almost failed it and had low marks... so my dad would yell at me ALL the timeย #HiTtauma
NONE of what I learned in โmandatoryโ math class actually helped me in life. ๐
2๏ธโฃ I cheated my way through science class because I hands down WOULD NOT have passed if I didnโt... so I always felt like an idiot.
Again... none of these โmandatoryโ classes actually helped me in the real life. ๐
3๏ธโฃ Like many others, I was conditioned to link my self-worth to my grades, and honestly, it felt pretty fucking shitty...
Considering I was also struggling with bullying, depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation.
4๏ธโฃ Most of us get mad...
THE TOP 3 WAYS WE GIVE OUR PERSONAL POWER AWAY (and how to stop doing this!)ย
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1๏ธโฃ Checking your phone ๐ฑ first thing in the morning โ๏ธโฃ
So you just woke up ๐ด, rolled over and are now going through the backlog of whatsapp messages, Instagram DMโs and texts ๐ฌ from people in your life and in your audience...โฃ
Wah-wow, wrong move dude! โ ๏ธโฃ
๐๐ผ The moment you check your phone youโre giving your power away to whoever is on the other endโฆโฃ
๐๐ผ Take the first moments of your day to fully sink into your OWN thoughts and feelings without having them polluted by someone elseโs. โฃ
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2๏ธโฃ Accept personal responsibility for your feelingsโฃ
๐ ๐ผโโ๏ธ Quit blaming other people for how you feel!โฃ
The only person who is responsible for how you feel is YOU - itโs your job to manage your own emotions, not someone elseโs. ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธโฃ
๐๐ผ The only way someone is going to cause you to feel bad is if you ALLOW them to.โฃ
๐๐ผ Checkity check your reactions and accept the part you had to play in the emotions youโre...
As an entrepreneur, a coach a healer, a leader... itโs so crucial to be actually moving through your own healing process so you can ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ซ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ of the work that you do. โฃ
Healing childhood ๐ง๐ป AND ancestral ๐ต๐พ ๐๐ผ๐๐ป๐ฑ๐ that youโve ๐๐๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ฐ๐ถ๐ผ๐๐๐น๐ slapped bandaids ๐ค on...โฃ
Unpacking the ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ด๐ด๐ฎ๐ด๐ฒ ๐ youโve carried with you your ENTIRE life.โฃ
Frankly, itโs really difficult to help others before youโve worked through your own blocks, beliefs and traumasโฆ ๐โฃ
โโโโโโโโฃ
And itโs pretty hypocritical and inauthentic if youโre telling others to deal with their shit but youโre not addressing your own! *shots fired*โฃ
But, that DOESNโT mean that you need to be โperfectโ or โhealedโ before you can help other people!!โฃ
There is no such thing as being โperfectโ, and healing isnโt finite. ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธโฃ
๐๐ผ We are always healing, evolving and growing.โฃ
๐๐ผ Your rawness and vulnerability about your personal healing process...โฃ
๐๐ผ Being authentic and sharing the shit that youโre going through is going to supp...
How to let your deepest โpainโ evolve into your greatest STRENGTHSโฃ ๐๐ผ
This is something that I never really understood until I really started plunging into the depths of my OWN personal development work, learning about the human psyche, the subconscious mindโฆ ๐ง โฃ
And healing from my own childhood wounds, ancestral trauma and the emotional baggage that Iโd been carrying round for pretty much #forever. ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธโฃ
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We experience all of the contrast in life, so that we can bounce back:โฃ
๐๐ผ strongerโฃ
๐๐ผ more powerfulโฃ
๐๐ผ more equipped to heal and lead others to transform and live exceptional lives.โฃ
โฃ
When we go deep into our โpainโ and ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ผ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฟ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ, we are able to ๐๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐บ๐๐๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ to pure ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐ป๐ฒ๐ฐ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป, ๐๐๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ป๐ด๐๐ต, ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ and ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ.โฃ
We become magnetic ๐งฒ - to the wealth we wish to attract, to the dream clients, the relationship, and to all the desires we have in our life.
๐จ My ๐๐ฅ๐๐ ๐ช๐ผ๐ฟ๐ธ๐๐ต๐ผ๐ฝ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ - ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐ช๐ผ๐๐ป๐ฑ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ช๐ฒ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ต starting on Monday, October 12th is officially open for re...
Itโs frustrating to know and feel the ๐น๐ถ๐บ๐ถ๐๐น๐ฒ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ฎ๐น you are capable ofโฆโฃ
To have these ๐ฑ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐บ๐ and ๐๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ for who you want to be, how you want to show up and what you want to create out of your life and/or your business.โฃ
When instead of seeing THAT version of yourselfโฆโฃ
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๐ ๐ปโโ๏ธ Youโre feeling blocked, stuck, unconfident and anxious.โฃ
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Youโre finding yourself:โฃ
โช๏ธ playing smallโฃ
โช๏ธ not expressing what you really feelโฃ
โช๏ธ worrying so much about what people thinkโฃ
... that you avoid showing up at all so as not to ruffle feathers.โฃ
โโโโโโโโฃ
โก๏ธ Could you IMAGINE how differently youโd show up in your ๐น๐ถ๐ณ๐ฒโฆ your ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐น๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ต๐ถ๐ฝ๐โฆ or your ๐ฏ๐๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐ if you were able to:โฃ
๐๐ผ Identify your ๐น๐ถ๐บ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ and call yourself the F out (lovingly) as theyโre happeningโฃ
๐๐ผ Activate aspects of your ๐ฎ๐๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ฐ ๐๐ผ๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฒโฃ
๐๐ผ Become more comfortable ๐๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ธ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐๐ฟ๐๐๐ตโฃ
๐๐ผ Run your life and/or biz from a ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐น๐บ, ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐ณ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ and ๐ฒ๐บ๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ฎ๐น ๐ถ๐ป๐๐ฒ๐น๐น๐ถ๐ด๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒโฃ
Kinda feels like most, if not a...
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